The Other Person

I decided long ago to make myself the priority, because I was tired of being who they wanted me to be, I was tired of giving up myself to please their fantasies. They would never accept me, so why do I try to be?

It rained today, and I cried

Because, I wanted to hold your hand.

I wanted to share in the melancholy of the sky

I wanted to stare boldly at the storm

I wanted to be warm.

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But you’ve given me everything already,

You had nothing left to give, so you gave me space.

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All i ever wanted was to love you

In the most extra ordinary way possible

But I do not know how to love without flaws

I do not know how to give without taking

I do not know how to sit still and lean with the curves

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You see, I’m messy to a fault

My trait is I forget how to stall my heart and let my brain lead

I don’t know how not to project my impurities,

You really tried to love me, but I was just too toxic

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I wanted you, but I didn’t want you, not the you you are

The you I created in my mind

And I refused to give up my imaginations of you for you.